‘love you long time’

and its been a very very long time..

since my last entry (god knows when) ive been through another badly chosen relationship which include abuse of every kind (and here i thought K was bad.. but no.. apparently i could do worse). worked my up the ladder at work, fell back down again, saw a psych (that looked remarkably like Barbie), who referred me to clinical psych… so yeh.. a lot..

me being me.. im in another relationship.. i know what youre thinking.. ‘relationship junkie’. but i shit you not.. i dont go looking.. im just found and when i am i cant say no because, who knows? this one could very well be THE ONE.. and you know what? i’ll say it again as ive said it before.. W is the closest thing to THE ONE yet..

{ as shitty a time as i am having, just thinking, writing, voicing that out just made me smile }

a lot of what i believed in, mostly about people at work needs to be re-evaulated and thats putting it midly. as hardcore hardass as i seem on the outside, i really am just putty in the inside and when i give someone my trust and loyalty – i do give it wholeheartedly. just so happens that i give it too easily and without thought to myself.

maybe this is something i should change. i really should be more discerning.