unbelievable

it was Bec and G's farewell last night.. and after trying to organise a night out for the last 7 months it was finally happening..

see Bec lives near K's brother's house so it was only a natural conclusion that i go there for a smoke before i go to Bec's… anyway I came to some information about K that didnt quite add-up so I confronted him about it, afterwards he asked me why I asking his brother about things and told him that i was at his brother's house before i go to Bec's…. he said goodbye and hung up, i called him again and he told me not to call him at that number anymore… i dont know what i did wrong and told him so.. before Bec, G and i left her house i got a msg from him saying "its cool, have fun, talk to you later and i love you"… (am i the only here not getting it still???)

he threw me out of his house, last time i tried to talk to him he hung up on me, and then again last night.. he doesnt want to see me or talk to me, he doesnt msg me. i dont see why i should be the one chasing after him..

anyway… we finally head out..im pumped and so excited, but at the same time really nervous as theres gonna be a lot of people there and i would only know Bec and G.. but since Bec did my make up (since Im so hopelss with that sort of thing) i felt a bit happier and confident..

everyone was really nice. i finally met Bec's friends and they are just the nicest people.

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a few months ago before K and i got back together and i was still with St, Bec and i were having domestics with our partners and proceeded to get utterly sloshed, she showed me photos of her and her friends and straight away I noticed this guy .. who wouldnt hes easily one of the best looking guys Ive ever laid eyes on.. and I asked her who it was..

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anyway he was there.. even better looking in real life.. i wasnt the only one who noticed, there were a couple of girls who already liked him.. but just going through that whole shit with K earlier on i just so didnt feel like men, so i spent the night chatting and drinking with the girls..

the restaurant closed and we decided to go across the road to the pub and have a few more drinks.. he came with us.. i spent more time talking to everyone and watching the footy as it was on fox… as the night ended and we were on our way home; Bec & G at the front and he and I at the back, hes reached over and held my hand…

UNBELIEVABLE…

here I am at an all time low, not thinking about guys for a change, soo content to hang out with my best friend and theres this gorgeous guy trying to make a pass at me..

even G said to me when, S complained that all hes getting from the back is rejection.. "you know there were heaps of girls interested in this guy tonight?"… yes I know…

LOL.. yeh I know I, still smiling about the whole thing.. Im putting it down to him being drunk, but G said that S wasnt drunk.. he was cheeky and so sweet.. he kept trying to hold my hand saying I'll warm them up..

i havent spoken to K.. before he sent me that sms, i just felt like "Fuck it.."

right now? Im just content I doubt Id ever see S again or that hes even genuinely interested, even though Bec told me that in the 3 years shes known him shes never seen him act like that with anyone so… *shrug*

if anything i was so flattered.i didnt end up getting home until 4.. so it was a good night